Voice of the night air

I think my shot at happiness may often lie in accepting what most people would see as "getting the short end of the stick". I guess in the end it's all about what makes you happy, not what's supposed to. Not that I didn't already know that.

I'm also experiencing that phenomenon in which a question answered is simply the opening of several more questions, similar to the one answered. A little daunting, but I feel more at ease with these questions. I'm still restless, but I think for some reason I'm also feeling a sort of surge toward old creative endeavors. I'm back to wanting to make clothing, start a band,... these things don't seem any more likely per se.

The most I can say ..or the least .. I don't really know... is that this is the first weekend in a while I've done work and not felt agitated by the idea that I could be doing something other than work.

And my little non work break today was nice. One of those "I don't know what it means in the long run, but I know what it means to me right now" kind of things. And it means I can be content and bide my time doing what I'm supposed to.

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